I'll give you a tip, invite your family and friends over, fire up the grill and get really drunk.
The next day, when you feel really bad because of mineral deficiency in your body and dehydration (also called a hangover), you make your decision.
This is how I, unconsciously, made many important decisions that in hindsight were all right and had the best impact on my life.
I am happily married, have a good income (5000+), am a civil servant for life and live in nature where we hopefully will soon be able to buy a piece of land. I'm still waiting a bit to build. Hiking, sports, grilling with friends and drinking beer :cool: also sometimes lying around and reading a book....etc, etc, etc... all things that make me happy.
You have to stick to things that make you or you all happy. Not where the nonsense kindergarten is. Don’t make it too complicated for yourself. Whether it’s a mid-terrace house, a tiny house, a rental house or a penthouse apartment. Do what suits you. When I hear how you torment yourself, it really makes me sick.
As I said, have a good time, pour yourself a few halves and I promise you, the next day the decision will be easier for you.
In my opinion, the reason for this could be that the morning after you are still a bit intoxicated, so your ego is still boosted, you dare more, and at the same time you physically feel bad and focus on what is good for you.
It worked for me :);)